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Ending the year with a bang.

6 Jan

All in all 2010 was a good year, there were a few bumps in the road but overall I was a big fan. That is, until the 3oth of December.

I got up, packed my bags for work and headed out knowing full well that there was snow in the forecast. Glancing up at the sky on the way out the back door, I figured that I had a few hours before it started and silently planned that I would get to work, get a few things done and then head back home to finish up the day before the storm ever hit. It’s a good plan if I do say so myself.

As I’ve mentioned before (maybe?) I drive about an hour to work every day… So, I’m cruising along listening to my newest book on tape Change of Heart (which I recommend as of now — on disc 9) by Jodi Picoult and contemplating what it would be like to be on death row when a spattering of snow starts to trickle down to my windshield. I resolve to just get into work, grab my computer and work from home because this whole snowstorm business is moving a little quicker than previously anticipated.

The roads start to dampen and traffic slows a bit because it’s the first snow of the season — and though I live in a state where snow is commonplace, there are a plethora of drivers stick their heads up their rears the first few rounds every year. This, my friends, becomes an enormous blessing. I’m approaching the Berthoud exit on I-25 — about 20 minutes from work — and the brake lights of the cars ahead began to flare. I push the brake to slow with them and nothing. I pump the brakes because that’s what I’m suppose to do and nothing. I start praying that the breaks will start working and nothing. Nothing, no brakes on the highway. Fabulous.

The car(s) in front of me seem to be experiencing the same set of brake problems when it dawns on me that my brakes are perfectly fine, but the sheet of black ice below me is the culprit. The red sedan ahead of me starts fishtailing then veering to the right. I have to guide myself to the right to avoid slamming into her. She then loses complete control, cutting in front of me, headed straight for the ditch on the right side of the road. I shift further right, leaving the left lane and find myself hurtling toward the ditch.

From there on out it happened so fast that it’s a complete blur. I hit the ditch, rolled the car 360 degrees and ended right side up, facing south on the frontage road next to the highway. The back windshield shattered, the front cracked but miraculously holding it’s fragmented self together. My lunch involving Mac n’ cheese and sauerkraut is flung about the car, strings of noodles and cabage on everything. Nothing is where it was suppose to be.

I’m ok. Terrified of driving (especially in snow). But, ok. I banged up my back and left shoulder, but they’ll heal. I had glass in my clothes, but not one single cut. I was bumped and bruised and sore heading into 2011, but most of all I was incredibly lucky. Someone was surely watching over me.

I don’t know if my car is totaled, hoping to find out by tomorrow, but it’s hard to imagine it would be anything but. A week after — I feel nervous driving anywhere and constantly check the mirrors, slow when the roads look damp and attempt to stay as far away from any other vehicle as possible. I don’t think I’ll be driving in snow for a while… even if I get a bigger car. It sounds so cliche and dramatic to say my life flashed before my eyes, but as my body tucked in to prepare for what was coming all I could do is hope for the best.

Maybe I just need to be lucky that I didn’t start the new year with a bang — since it would have been a whole 365 before I got to start over, instead of just 2.

Hope your end of 2010 and start of 2011 was far less eventful!

 

That one time I went caving, aka spelunking.

4 Aug

A few years back, my dad lived on this farm in Missouri. I grew up in the city and thought it was absolutely spectacular to visit and “work” on the farm for a few weeks a year. Throughout my childhood I would dream of living on a farm, having unlimited access to all kinds of animals and just living in the country. I think that  I’ve mentioned that I have family in Iowa (if not, you now know), and about half of them live on farms. We’d go for a visit but never, really, got to experience the day-to-day grind of farm life, meaning my Dad’s farm was all new to me.

Riding the dirt road!

It took 15 minutes down a dusty, dirt road to find his really long driveway. Once you arrived at the top of the drive, the farm was speckled with all kinds of buildings and corrals and sheds. Each day was a new adventure, we fed the chickens, gave the goats their annual shots, road the horse, fed the dogs, checked in on the chicks, and so on. Farm life. We got dirty every day and I loved each and every second.

In addition to all the crazy buildings and having a river that was 1/4 mile away there was also a cave on the property (freaking cool!)… and my dad had the key. The state had it gated off for preservation reasons.

On one particular day, I was out in Missouri visiting with a friend. The three of us (my dad, the friend and I) drove down the little, rocky dirt driveway and parked the mini-van.

Yes, my dad drove a mini-van, and if you asked him today what car he would want, if he could have any http://meganastout.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=952&action=editcar in the world? He would tell you a mini-van. That’s my dad.

We hauled ourselves out into the humidity and hiked up the hill to said cave. The friend and I slithered and crawled back to the gate where we worked to unlock it — a trickier endeavor than originally planned. Probably a broken lock. The friend then turns to tell me that it is unlocked, to express the joy at having defeated the dilapidated gate. As he’s speaking I start to notice that his gaze has shifted from looking directly at me to looking slightly above me. He says in the calmest voice he can muster, “Megan, don’t look up” … so… what do I do? What would any normal person do? I looked up. There were thousands, maybe millions of AMAZON-sized crickets covering the ceiling of the cave, only a few inches from the top of my head. This, my friends, is at the top of my list titled “Things I Fear”. Saying I was terrified doesn’t even begin to cut it. I screamed an endless, blood curdling, someone stabbed me in the chest scream and got out of that cave faster that I thought was humanly possible.

I didn’t stop at the cave entrance – too close. I RAN down the hill and locked myself in the mini-van and cried. It was hot, I almost died and I was chased down the hill by a swarm of angry, biting horse flies (ouch!). The bugs were out to get me that day. My dad and the friend made their way back to the car, but only after shooting a poisonous snake hanging from one of the tree branches I screeched past on my way down. I wish I could tell you what kind of snake it was but I was so focused on not being eaten alive by insects that I didn’t catch it’s name. You’re surprised. I know.

Sometimes I think about that day and how honestly scared I was. Rationally I know that the crickets weren’t going to all jump on me, crawl through my nose and eat me alive in that cave. I know it. Sort of. Even now, just the thought of them, squirming all over the ceiling is enough to evoke goose bumps on my arms and a lump in my throat. I am 100% terrified of bugs.

About six months later I went back and crawled the cave with a group of burly men. Examined bats. Counted spiders (from a VERY safe distance) and survived. Albeit a bit shredded and muddy. It was crazy both times and I can’t say that I’m keen on getting back into a cave. I can, however say that I’m so glad for the experience. For having gotten dirty and for going back when I didn’t think I could.

I tore my pants -- I'm so brave.

My caving buddies!

You have any good stories? Bugs? Going back?

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